Updated: Apr 14
In the 1980s Bob Seger & the Silver Bullet Band had a song that hit #5 on Billboard's Top 100 called, “Against the Wind.” Seger said the song came about from his days as a high-school cross country runner. He described the song as "about trying to move ahead, keeping your sanity and integrity at the same time." It doesn't just have to be about running.
It’s been eleven months since I lost my ministry job due to the Covid-19 financial crisis. I’ve not been able to find permanent employment during this time. Thankfully, I’ve had several contract coaching and consulting jobs and while I'm grateful for these and thankful that God has supplied, nothing substantial and certainly nothing permanent has surfaced.
Recently, I believed I had a position coming through that would change all that. Then came the email that said “We are going in another direction.” You know what that means. Sure, I made it down to one of three, but not one of two.
I thought to myself, “Well, at least I have the other possibility still open.” I actually wanted “this other possibility” way more than the one I had just lost out on. Sure enough, later that morning a phone call came from the place I really, really wanted to work. They said, “While I was high in every regard, they just didn’t believe it was God’s will to go any further with me.”
I get it. I’m not the right person for every position and not every place is right for me. But there is a point where I begin to wonder if any place will be right for me. (Yeh, I know it sounds a lot like whining here).